Lonely Life....

Bismillah...

Assalamualaikum wbt


Almost end of April 2014... My life is so bored.
Like always...always alone.... feeling lonely... so lonely...

29 years as living being....
i'm not a good muslimah...
i'm not a good daughter...
i'm trying to change... what should i do to be istiqamah...?

Ya Allah... help me... your helpless servant...

this heart so black, as black as darken night...
what should i do to treat this heart...
this heart really need to be treated..

why so much hatred in my heart..
i've try many things to avoid it, but, only thing i can fell in my heart just hatred...

hatred towards everything..

Ya Allah.... help me...

Astagfirullah...