Lonely Life....

Bismillah...

Assalamualaikum wbt


Almost end of April 2014... My life is so bored.
Like always...always alone.... feeling lonely... so lonely...

29 years as living being....
i'm not a good muslimah...
i'm not a good daughter...
i'm trying to change... what should i do to be istiqamah...?

Ya Allah... help me... your helpless servant...

this heart so black, as black as darken night...
what should i do to treat this heart...
this heart really need to be treated..

why so much hatred in my heart..
i've try many things to avoid it, but, only thing i can fell in my heart just hatred...

hatred towards everything..

Ya Allah.... help me...

Astagfirullah...

Resolutions...

20 New Year’s Resolutions For 20-Somethings

1. Before you status update, Tweet, or Tumble pause and say to yourself, “is it entirely necessary that I share this morsel of thought with my entire social network?”and if the answer is not, “yes, I absolutely must,” then step away from the Internet.
2. Know which candidate you’re going to vote for in the upcoming presidential election, and know why.
3. Enough with the 14-day juice cleanses. If you want to lose a little weight quickly, eat less and exercise like crazy. If you want to lose a lot of weight slowly, do whatever Jennifer Hudson did.
4. If you really like the person you’re hooking up with and would like them to be your boyfriend/ girlfriend, find a way to tell them, and hope for the best. If you don’t and wouldn’t, stop.
5. Find a way to save approximately 300 dollars and spend it on a flight to see a friend or family member who lives far away.
6. Please stop liking the Kardashians, all of them. It’s not helping anyone, least of all the Kardashians.
7. Spend less than or equal to the money you earn each month.
8. Wear clothes that fit you, especially to work.
9. Call someone on the phone at least once a week, and speak to him or her for at least ten minutes.
10. Start preparing now to get over the fact that Facebook is probably going to change again in six months. You’re not going to deactivate your account. You don’t know how.
11. Wait 30 seconds before you look up a fact you can’t remember on your phone, and try to remember it using your brain. This is what the olden days were like.
12. Replace one terrible reality show you’re currently watching with one wonderful scripted show currently available on television. Swap suggestion: Real Housewives of Anywhere for HBO’s Enlightened.
13. Try that food you think you don’t like but have never actually tried, unless it’s brussels sprouts. They really don’t need any more attention.
14. Cut one person out of your life who you truly do not like and add one person who you truly do. Note: not on Facebook, on Earth.
15. If you’re still blacking out regularly, you should stop.
16. Volunteer once over the next 90 days. You’ll feel really good about it, and probably end up volunteering again over the next 275.
17. Tell someone who you love that you love them on a more regular basis. To their face, not in a text.
18. Back up your entire online life onto an external hard drive, especially your photos.
19. Crap or get off the pot. This applies to whatever thing you’re not doing that you should just sack up and do already.
20. And in the eternal words of Tom Haverford, “TREAT YO SELF!”

got it from here. it quite cool though...

p/s: If you need a job to get a new life you either need a new job or a new life.

-xoxo-

Somewhere Over The Rainbow

Really love this song...

Somewhere Over The Rainbow
♬♬♬Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high,
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue, ♪
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.

Someday I'll wish upon a star ♪♪
And wake up where the clouds are far
Behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly. ♪
Birds fly over the rainbow.
Why then, oh why can't I? ♪

If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I?♬♬♬


After the big storms, there's always a rainbow to be found. If yesterday, the rain was heavy, but we were rewarded with a beautiful rainbow. The rainbow was so incredibly vivid, you could see exactly where each color began and bled into the next color stripe.



p/s: Some people believe that without history, our lives amount to nothing. At some point we all have to choose: do we fall back on what we know, or do we step forward to something new? It's not hard to be haunted by our past. Our history resurfaces time after time after time. So we have to remember, sometimes the most important history is the history we're making today


-xoxo-

New Year Resolution

Though it's already late... 16 days past new year 2012... still I wanna with everyone, Happy New Year 2012... Hopefully this year going to be more blissful to everyone the previous year..

what's ur 2012 resolution?

I've things i want to achieve.. Lots of thing actually..
1) I want stable professional job.. Yeah, i've been unemployed for, emm.. Almost 6 months now.. Quite a long period actually.. After i quit my first job last July.. i am jobless till today.. haih!! but now, i put my 300% effort hunting for a job.. wish me luck..
2) I want to settle (hopefully) all my debts.. i have lots of debts, hopefully i can, even if not settling all of its, but at least some of it.. for clear and blissful mind throughout this year, else, my brain going to blow out.. hopefully i can save my brain and mind.. ahahahah...
3) Want to have BIG savings... for future... who knows.. no one know what going to happen in future, but at least we prepared for whateva it is.
4) Then, i want to change my (bad) attitude. i guess i have lots of bad attitude, that's why not so many people like me..
5) I want to do lots of good deeds to both my parent. After all this time, they protected me, raised me well. at least i want to do something for them..

thats all i guess.. cant have a long list, otherwise all not executed.. well, that's me..

p/s: You gotta wonder why we cling to our expectations. Because the expected is just what keeps us steady, standing, still. The expected is just the beginning. The unexpected is what changes our lives


-xoxo-

My Life, My Story

This is my story... my life...

I'm just a ordinary and typical 26-going-to-27 years old girl..

Living a simple-yet-complicated life...
lots of trouble actually...
but, life must go on..
like one of my favourite saying, not sure from whom...

'Live like there's no tomorrow'

crying..smiling...feeling upset with everything... and whateva it is... i still love my life...



p/s : Here's the truth about the truth. It hurts, so we lie.


-xoxo-